Was today typical?
Today was no typical summer day
My higher power granted me peace
To walk in my light, unafraid to fight
The demons on my heals, released
If I listen to my human emotions
I lose site of the Lords devotion
To see me through the darkest moments
Where the demons come to bewitch with their concocted potions
They whisper, spread rumors and gossip out of boredom
Or maybe jealousy, either way I ignore them
When God walks with me and I can feel the spirit
I can fear no spiritual attack or slander, can’t hear it
Today was not a typical July day
I asked my God for peace and patience
To walk through the storm, amongst the waves
At His own pace, in His perfect time, rhyme and cadence
And to the demon infested souls
Trying to infect me with their inhuman cold
I’m not afraid of you, my destiny is already set
By a power far beyond any you’ve ever met
Leave the childish pettiness behind
Find something better to do with your time
Perhaps with time you’ll come to find
You dig your grave quicker being so unkind
The past couple of weeks have been tough. A very miserable person decided to use their connections to dig into my past, at work. Emphasis on past. They then went on to tell everyone who would listen. I’m a neuroscientist that specializes in behavior. I notice patters right away so I realized something was up. They’re not fooling anyone; I see all of them. They’re not as good at being fake as the people I worked with before.
I’m not the same person I was even just a year ago, so this ancient history is not one that bothers me anymore. I am not the person I was years ago. I acknowledged the mistakes that I made and came to forgive myself when others wouldn’t. I use them as guiding principles. I would argue that we’re all human and make mistakes but with the level of drama that ensued from said gossip, I imagine they must think I’m inhuman. I guess that tracks.
I’ve found peace and clarity in my obedience to God. No longer do I flail stubbornly clinging to my inferior knowledge and “strength”. I lay everything at His feet and marvel at the miracles He makes happen every day. My lonely battles are over, self inflicted calamity abated.
Today I pray for my tormentors. Those looking for relevance in the diminishment of others. May they find genuine peace and a love that heals. (Also, Please stop harassing me lol)
Finally, I pray that I can become the servant God needs me to be. I know there’s a reason for all the pain and trauma. If I could heal the whole world, I would. Give some purpose to all this drama.
I wonder what this weekend will bring….
What are your thoughts? We want to know!