What fears have you overcome and how?
I find myself today, laying in bed hoping for a better future. One where I don’t have to depend on any substances that aren’t prescribed. I gave up my smoking habits, but clung to the numbing comfort of alcohol. I was afraid to face the memories I didn’t want to have. The pain of trauma is real and heavy, and I became avoidant to cope.
Today, as I lay here, it’s been two days since I had my last drink. I feel pins and needles all over my body. But I don’t feel nauseated. I haven’t vomited. I was awake and interacting with my family today. I even took them to dinner.
I want to go to medical school and finish my PhD. I want to help children in Ghana by becoming a psychiatrist and psychologist. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that have me marveling at the human body and mind. I want to understand it all. I know I have that capacity…God made me. But I know I must get sober, first.
Today, I am 30 hours sober. I thank God for this small miracle. After 1.5 years of drinking everyday, I feel grateful to be finding my way out of the woods.
Now I know what I’m fighting for. Me
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